that's it then

i get five minutes of attention, even less, and that's it then... so much more to do in life out there, and just cuz i've withdrawn from everything to sit here healing my foot and licking my wounds and save money does not mean anybody else should be here or doing what i do and until i find someone who actually wants to share time and space and life with me, except for the few minutes of sharing i find now and then online, there is only this... and when jackson is home and has time (which is very rarely), which is why i want a roommate these days (besides the money sharing) and she is the most compatible roommate i know of available roommates and why i want to stay in orlando at this time and that's it then... simple when it's simplified...

maybe it's the end of the half-blood prince that influences the mood (maybe?... ha, remember reading that for the first time?... then having to wait for book 7?... now i want to see the lasttwo movies... and share them... waiting, that's life)... i look at the phone and want it to beep, a text, a game, a call, and yet... no clue as to who, i mean, nobody in particular i want to talk to enough to reach out myself and i've isolated myself so well over the past year working and the past few months staying home that i am sorta dead (mostly dead again?)...

all i want is someone to care enough to want to be with me always (not asking much huh?... but there's much more) only thing is, that person must be someone who inspires me to want to be with them all the time too... wow, just look at what the loneliness let out...