more to the point, why react poorly to the stress... why fear the stress... why let the stress become anxiety... and finally, for the moment, why the fear?...
people are so afraid of so much, it is challenging to relate to them... they create drama and so much more stress in their heads than necessary... so much anxiety over what?... and the fears, so irrational so often... people create anxiety and drama to avoid confronting the fears (and each other)... so afraid of honesty... people create delusions to placate the irrational fears and how does one relate to that?... join the delusion, ignore the delusion, confront the delusion?... none of those work for me... joining is pretense, i only like pretending on stage or in a role playing game... ignoring without joining is dangerous, even suicidal... confronting is dangerous to the point of hostility, or at least to anxiety to the point of hysteria... how does one communicate with someone in a delusional state, someone hiding behind walls of fears that are hidden behind walls of delusions...
it is sad to get close to people... there is so little peace in them... so little truth... and so little honesty comes out... i want to return to my peace again... alone, if that's how is must be...
sigh :)
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