good sleep

at least i think it's good sleep... went back to bed just before 8am and just woke again... did not drink as much water as i usually do so the four hour cycle just blended into the next four hour cycle and it feels so good to catch up on sleep and moreover, to sleep when the body and brain want to sleep and wake when the body and brain want to wake... that is the healthiest way to live and the way our culture prevents the vast majority of us from living... the vast majority of us are worker bees and drones just moving stuff around so the few queens can live in extreme freedom and luxury... but we are such a self-destructive species that those who have that luxury often choose to poison themselves and the vast majority of us do the same while destroying the planet by taking much much more than we need from the planet and wasting most of it... it's so clear after a good sleep and while the clarity feels wonderful, the sad state of humanity feels quite sad...

even those closest to me wonder why i am sad some days and so rarely do i find someone who feels the full state of the ecosystem on this planet... so much beaty, wonder, and excitement and so sad that most humans never notice in their mad race to possess as much of it as they can... as if possession means anything in this temporary existence we know as life... just one of the big delusions that keep most people in the dark struggling to understand why they are struggling in the dark...