on into another night

well, after the excitement and stress of today, it would definitely be nice to have someone to hug tonight... and someone to talk to too... after running her to doctors and meds and such, it would have been nice to get a check in from jackson to let me know she is ok though - hope she is ok... it's cool that her girlfriend took tomorrow off and insisted she go there for the night, but not knowing really sucks... makes caring and being a best friend very challenging... at least i have you, my silent friends, and i have the words, these words that help me release tension, digest challenges, and feel much less alone... so i hug myself in words and smile, cuz words are still my best friends (especially when words are the reflection of me)...

distracting myself with tv, watching a really weird structural analysis of the world trade center and pentagon... it's seriously flag waving and suspect in how much of the obvious it is leaving out... the world trade center was much stronger than any other building?... the builders simulated a jet flying into it and determined it would withstand the crash... obviously they were wrong... and then, hindsight suggested that the towers lasted longer than any building ever would have... yet there was another building hit by a plane since then that did not collapse... let's not even get into building seven questions...

ridiculous lack of objectivity... not to suggest there was a conspiracy, not to suggest anyone deliberately lied, just to point out that the official report seems to gloss over a whole lot of questions, like how did so many columns of steel turn to dust in an hour when the fires were 80+ stories above the columns... and why was no mention of the 3000 degree temperatures still burning weeks after the collapse that prevented rescuers from getting close... shock makes it easy to forget and allows for a rewrite of history, perhaps, but the documentary is definitely lacking a whole lot of information and answers...

sad, the ignorance or fear keeps so much hidden from view that conspiracies become easy to imagine... maybe that's the way the powers that be want it... it is a great distraction from the corruption in government that is destroying the country, after all...

so how was your night? :}