evening naps

when sleep comes, it comes... probably influenced by some frustration and disappointment over not playing softball tonight, i sat here listening to the most recent favorite musical mix (mentioned again because i sense this one will remain a favorite for more than a few hours, or days, as it bypassed the usual add channels in my brain and cut through the invisible walls between music and my heart, but don't tell anyone cuz, you know, secrets and all... and yeah, i'll get around to connecting the secret link eventually when i stop laughing... shhhh, we're serious, ya know?) and i think i checked facebook (took a break for a few days again) and downloaded some of the music and let myself float into the music and nodded off...

somewhere along the way i moved to the couch and sort of watched through the wormhole which copped out, as so often is the case with fearful humans discussing religion stuff, by not being balanced when it came to the did we create god? episode... last line leaves us with the assumption we did not, even though the 59 minutes before provided lots of evidence that could point to the contrary... so much brain energy wasted on what might be, on dreams of tomorrow, on escapes from living today, on avoiding responsibility... is that really what any god would want?... it's no wonder the world is in the state it is in... anyway, sleep coming unplanned is still sweet...