conversations

sometimes i am craving conversations of a different nature and there is no one around to have those conversations... and when we come to the bottom line, i have not found anyone i can have the conversations at my core with in this life which is why i have such an irreverence perspective and disconnected relationship with humans... humans are afraid of truths, especially truths about religions and sociology politics and sexuality and life and death and i await the human who will prove me wrong... humans instinctively seek simplicity, yet consciously complicate everything and then wonder why they live in fear and confusion... sadly, some do not even consciously know they live in fear and confusion because they accept delusions that pretend to provide answers that are lies or at least unproven theories... it compounds confusion with delusion and layers the lies that keep them in place to the point where there is no reasonable truth within the rationalizations that justify them...

that's where drinking and drugs come in... they cloud the mind and push the layers of lies and human mind games away from consciousness so everything is alright... i mean, if we truly were right with the world and knew the truth, would be be so eager to kill ourselves and each other?... can you trust your answer?...

anybody wanna talk? :)