that is the goal for this week and this month... hopefully jackson can fnd her way to it too cuz she stresses over my not being employed a whole lot more than i do (so much so that i do my best not to broach the subject or discuss resumes or job searches or anything related to jobs or money with her whenever possible... i forget too often cuz i love to share and want feedback and support and reassurance and cheering and all the stuff that the occasional bout of insecurity hungers for and that gets uncomfortable so i am reminding myself to remember... keep it to myself... cuz i love her and don't want her to stress and i can quell the insecure little lonely child inside on my own, awwww, we all soft and gushy now?... well somebody ought to be lol... little kid says do i always have to be the strong one?... hushabye, aye?... there's always hope, ya know)...
happiness woke and went to jackson's bedroom door... i texted her to see if she was still asleep, but she's not... her door is usually open and happiness moves in and out of her room a lot staring at me from there when it's not in the living room... he can't seem me when he goes in there now, but he went in through the bathroom door for a bit, then came out and checked out the porch, and is now laying next to me...
and i napped a bit after the last entry cuz after all, i am supposed to be on vacation so sleeping in is an essential aspect of a successful vacation and i want to be a success, after all... the day is beautiful (weather too) and so it is time to shower and enjoy it... anybody wanna come out to play? :)
far away friends, i hope you find smiles today :)
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