so much to talk about

but so little communication... we each choose what is important and disregard, even belittle everything else... and what is on the mind is seldom what comes out of the mouth, which is such a waste of time from my perspective, but then, that's just me deciding what is important to me... honesty and openness is important, pretense and superficiality that placates and empowers insecurity or fears is what i'd rather disregard... every entry has links and topics, but before conversation begins, another entry pops up... like most people under the age of fifty have sex on their minds much more often than they'd admit, so the conversations about or that could lead to a sensual experience are pushed to the side or back of the mind and awkward silence or some trivial matter is chosen...

here, we share silence most... but then, in life offline most share the same... hardly even make eye contact or acknowledge others are there - think about the last time you were in an elevator, or walked down a street... it's sad, but that is our choice... i suppose this sort of public blogging is one way of attempting to choose differently, saying hello and sharing for anyone who notices...

i'll remember that next time i am in an elevator :)