laundry and visits

yes, finally, the laundry that has been piling up on the big green chair (yes, the big green chair still exists... it is in the bedroom) since, well, you probably wouldn't believe me,... yes, since before the foot injury (april 22nd), but before that too... in fact, some of the stuff in that pile may date back to the last softball tournament (was that tampa or ft lauderdale?... and why am i so detached from all the people i could be closer to anyway?... don't trust them?... don't want to risk intimacy?... enjoy my solitude and independence too much?... remembering how my honesty offends or upsets others?... feel i am liked better from afar because of these things and others?... have any ideas?... why would i trust people who poison themselves and more, trust pills and chemicals doctors give them and commercials tell them to take?... what brought this on, anyway?... background tv?... dirty laundry?... oh laughing is so inappropriate sometimes lol lam laa :)

yeah, so anyway, precious visited and i started doing laundry... it was good to see her and though she's having challenges with her car and rent and life and i wish i could help (but i would be seriously unwise if not self-destructive to give her money now)... she is actually more responsible than her dad these days as she works (three jobs except during the summer when school is out, then just one job) and is going to give me money for the phone starting with the next bill... she's thinking about upgrading her phone even... so she will help pay the phone bill (she's such a good kid) and that makes two which helps a lot and that just leaves her dad... enough money thoughts, it's saturday...

so laundry, yes, yay... and that could lead to a deeper cleaning the bedroom and maybe even unwrapping the mattress (yes, it is still in it's plastic that protects it and keeps it kinda like new cuz a lot of stuff is piled up on it cuz there is so much clutter in the room... and i could not make the bed anyway while the foot was immobile and even now it would be challenging, but the cleaning seems to be coming and the foot is getting better and i sense i will unwrap the bed and put the bedding on it and sleep like a bit more normally which only happens when i go to hotels in the last 17 years, wow, i know... anyway)...

another saturday night confession, and it's not even midnight yet :)