long day

hours ago i was falling asleep, feeling horrible... way too much time spent at work doing a very important report, a plan of correction, mind foggy and hurting, but it needed to get done... and then, getting home ready to collapse, the rain flooded the enhtire walkway, more than a foot of water, so i was nodding off in the car waiting for the waters to recede... living here saves money and this place has the best layout we've found, but the flooding really annoys me and tonight was bad timing... when i finally got in here to eat something, i was a mess... after food, i was no better... the head just wanted to explode like the other night... so i took a steamy shower and felt a little better, but still too clogged up... so i watched tv... and then, the cat... curious would not let me sleep, so i grumped some more and then, indugence... i went out for jeremiahs... but jeremiahs was closed... so i went to walmart and remembered our walmart sucks for food or snacks, no sherbert in the freezer... so i got pineapple juice and noticed a new chip, lays new york reuben chips... so i had to try them...

and now, all juiced up, i am not sleeping... tinnitus screams softly in the left ear... friday night sci-fi plays in the background from the dvr and i long for something... sharing, but humans don't seem to get how to share unconditionally... puppies do, but they don't have the higher language and analytical capabilities i crave... so here i sit, awake when of course i should be sleeping and longing for something that may not actually exist in this world... someone who would feel compelled to read all of the previous entries and everything else connected to them... someone like me...

stop laughing, i'm still a sick puppy...

narf lol lam :)