shared physical comfort

to share physical comfort, you've got to be physically comfortable with your own body and i wonder how many people really are... i only know my own physical experience and i am not comfortable in this body when this body is bloated or flabby or buldging and i am even less comfortable being close to another body that is bloated or flabby or buldging and fat repulses me which is probably why i prefer smaller breasts, but that's more of a sexual preference and we weren't discussing sex, after all... physical comfort is so much more than sexual comfort and one can be shared without the other... as years have passed i find it more and more challenging to find shared physical comfort because the aging process brings so many bloats or flabs or buldges in people (and fat), alas, and then, there are the lies and delusions and irrational pretenses people turn to for comfort that bring no comfort whatsoever to me... so shall i lament being alone or shall i accept it or shall i compromise and settle for uncomfortable comfort?... the latter no longer appeals to me no matter how lonely i feel...

so i choose to remain open, accepting aloneness while still hoping someone who understands me will come along to share physical comfort... not sex, but honest physical comfort... and then, we can discuss sex and see if it disrupts the honest physical comfort... unless, of course, there is a mutual libido fantasy to share and then, bliss... what?... you want me to draw a picture for you?... laughing too much for that, you'll just have to find your favorite porn site and come back when you are satisfied... i'll be here waiting for the one...

narf :)