running no more

well, it's not that bad, i hope... i mean, it's not that i will never run again as if life is over for the athelete and youth... but i am remembering a time when i used to be able to run everywhere i wanted to go... when running was just moving as naturally as walking... the stamina is not there for that anymore... and the muscles are no longer able to maintain the cellular process to maintain constant movement for hours like they once did... it certainly does not help that i no longer run daily, heck, i don't even take long brisks walks daily in recent years... there have been those periods when i walk/jogged now and then and up until last year i walk/jogged at least a few 5k races each year... and how many times in the last few years have i written that i must start again or else, the ultimate else, alas, and time goes by... and i stay awake too late and i burn candles at both ends and in the middle too and and i work too much and move too little and whine about my lazy procrastination and here we are again... wherever this is...

i am rushing from task to task leaving little time or energy for anything else, but that's not running... i don't want to be running no more, so i said it again... write it again... i don't want to be running no more... hopefully this will change something and i will stop ignoring what i want...

narf!