mercurial

there have been many words used to describe me and my personality and my style and my way and many have some truth, much truth, even, but the most accurate word to describe me may be mercurial... i fit in nowhere because to fit in, one must have shape, form, consistency... one must be like the others with whom one fits... mercurial is shapeless as it forms any shape, changing with the whim of it's surroundings... forming and unforming and forming again, trying on the infinite diversity of the human perspectives and reaching beyond to where few people ever imagine... few remain mercurial beyond infancy...

i think i remain mercurial because i don't care about fitting in, about belonging anywhere except one place i've yet to find... i want to fit in with just one person... i wonder sometimes if the one will be mercurial like me or whether she will be the form i fill forever, the shape that brings a permanence to me...

sure would like to find out :)