the writing excites me

call it meaningless babble or profound personal catharsis or mediocre meandering through a myriad of literary styling for no apparent reason or anything you'd like (but if you'de like to call it, yay for attention, aye?), but the writing excites me and even when there is no one reading and even if nobody cares, there is much pleasure and reward for me personally in the pouring of words out of the brain and into the computers and ultimately on to this world wide web... and that makes it worth my time, no matter what may come of it beyond me... . . . enough to put on the running shoes and head out for a weak walking slight jog... yes, i put on more than running shoes, i did not go out there naked, though i have gone for naked runs in the past down in the boone docks of loughman where i use to live once upon a time... naked and barefoot runs are quite liberating, though the feet need to work their way up to those... once i was in really excellent physical condition, actually, dawn might remember... and the friends from lake buena vista as well... early nineties memories are very fit and luxuriously extravagant... sigh and all...

so four laps around the smaller loop of this community and i am sad at the state of the muscles of the legs and the state of the stamnia in the lungs... sure, i should expect atrophy since i have not run distances (running around the bases doesn't count as running to a runner) in more than a year and there is this blood pressure pill killing my muscle stamina and other aspects of the athlete i once was, but the layoff hurts a lot and there is no way to really know how much of this set-back is the lay-off and how much is the medication and how much is simply aging... crap, aging is crap... it's not all in the mind anymore... thunder rumbles outside and grumbles rumble inside and still, somehow, the light of excitement about writing and the hope of connecting and reconnecting with friends continues to shine through the bummer of the body condition... sometimes the spirit amazes me... the body doesn't always like the mind (and vice versa... i believe j get that)...

narf :)