wanting excitement

usually i am wanting interaction, social or some other interaction (individual gaming often suffices), but tonight i am more wanting excitement... it is saturday night so there is a whole lot of excitement of a sort out there in the world, but the vast majority of it involves poisons and pretenses and macho posturing, ego trips, and competition and that is not the kind of excitement i enjoy... my exctement comes from chamicals other than testosterone and other stuff... i am into harmless pleasurable excitements that are not interested in control or power or domination or any sort of negative energies... fear of physical limits perhaps, but not fear of others sharing the excitement or any others, actually... shared positive excitement, that's the ticket... even productive excitement... creative excitement most of all...

i'm also hungry, but that's easier to satisfy...

narf :)