sadly softball

i love the game, but the challenge is, many other people are required to play the game and people can be so very annoying... it only takes one or two and there are too only one or two out of a dozen or fifteen on a team that simply do not play well with others and we've got a couple, one in particular but he uses his boyfriend to create ridiculously unnecessary drama and so today winning two games and moving into first place (beating the the undefeated first place team and the two loss third place team) was tainted by divisive and secretive companing and manipulation by the guy after the game... he ignores the fact that he made more errors than anyone else and gave away more runs than anyone else and instead made everyone very incomfortable by complaining about coaching decisions to put newer weaker players for the last inning after we had a ten run lead... anyway, we do have a coaching problem because this consistently happens when our coach leaves and the assistant coach takes over because the guy feels more comfortable challenging the assistant coach than the coach...

worst of all is the i hurt my back and am in rather severe pain... it was just before the second game and i didn't get to warm up or stretch because the catcher (all the new players get to play catcher and they make me work extra chasing the ball because they can't throw it back to me consistently which throws me off and occasionally puts too much strain on my back) did not come out until everyone else was ready to play and i needed to stretch and throw some pitches after the first game so i almost took myself out for the game but pushed through and now i am quite immobilized as any movement is severe pain in the lower back... and my monday night team has a must win tomorrow which is gonna be quite a challenge...

sadly, softball is not as much fun without a close friend to share the ups and downs and challenges and pains and strains and struggles and victories... jackson works sundays now and went to see a possible new girlfriend tonight (like she has time or stability for that, but that's another story, and stressor)...

most of all i need to find a comfortable position so i can sleep...