need to sleep

and still the dog must be walked every few hours while i am home so we have a chance of him going ten hours (or more as ten hours is a short day for me) without puking, peeing, or shitting somewhere in the house while i am at work... and tomorrow i need to be at work before 6am, preferably 5:30am so wake up is 4:30am to allow feeding and walking (and maybe shower and making lunch) time and so... need to sleep... and yet and still... not happening yet... the circadian rhythm is just so off that the natural nocturnal clock is dominating and as midnight approaches i am wired and anxiety over knowing the body needs sleep just adds to the awakeness and the tinnitus is screaming and the neck is aching and the head doesn't feel good either (which is the body screaming for sleep even as the mind and nocturnal clock is wide awake)...

maybe i'll make a sammich...

narf...