caffeination

a few days from now, or so, i come to this realization and moment and bit of babbling bliss (or something like that)... minimal sleep for most of this year (and the last three months of last year) makes for minimal sleep for most of the last thirteen plus months combined with frustrations and sadness brought on by overwork and deep personal betrayals and the general unfairness of life among humans leads to many depressive moods and laziness and both true and false fatigue so now and then i consume the caffeine like most people do in this particular nation and sort of suddenly i am wired all by myself alone and there is no depression or loneliness or frustration or sadness or anything of the sort and almost suddenly the world is spinning in the right direction (as if it ever spins in the wrong direction, right?) and the night swims gleefully forward into starriness and spectacularity as if perfection was not only possible but actually happening (wait, was that cocaine in my coffee or are you just happy to see me?) and i am reminded of just how much caffeine mimics cocaine at times when mixed in the right proportions with sugar and chocolate and assorted mood-enhancing substances only found in the brain when the moon is full and the mind is right and the decision to overcome everything to be happily blissful is made and done...

ya know?...