nocturna

over the years i have found many websites that inspired me to fall in love with the creator of the site and sadly, many of those sites are gone because infividual human life is temporary and people are transient and few people really understand the way to create even the illusion of permanence or eternity... just don't delete, don't take pages down, don't lose hope that what you did is worth sharing... but people tend to diminish their perceived value and therein get lost in doubting themselves... it is so sad to me because when we devalue ourselves, we devalue everything and everyone... when we delete, discard, or otherwise destroy something we've done, we diminish humanity... the self-destruction of the human species is so conditioned since birth that rare is the human who sees the bigger picture that can show you the worth in every little thing, including every little thing you do...

and so i found noctura again and the pages i linked to her website all those years ago are still gone, so much wonder and value, but it was good to see she did not give up completely, even if it's scarcely the art that her original site was... and then, perhaps she did not take her pages down, perhaps she was a victim of the corporate internet like i was when the servers i trusted and isp service i paid for was simply discontinued, removing my many thousands of pages from the internet overnight... it's happened to me a few times... the temporary, the transient, the lack of respect... the greed... that's humanity in so many ways...

still, i wish i could browse her world again :)