and while i used to just get busy with my own life and stuff, more and more happiness is needing tlc and more frequent attention and walks and so i cut back on activities when jackson is away and this particular weekend the tv is boring to the extreme and i am semi-blah myself so i am not into motivating myself in any reasonable way mostly cuz i am tired cuz i am not sleeping well cuz of the couch and the neediness as happiness and curious wake me way too regularly to get any decent sleep so i put my head down several times today and when the kids didn't wake me the phone did cuz i had someone break the key off in the refrigerator at work (that's not the first time either which is just one more bit of evidence that people are careless which is quite frustrating) and harpo needed a lot of phone time today because, well, he's harpo and he can be a bundle of neurosis and so, it was a day for others... i did have linch with helen and friends which was a pleasant break from the neediness around here... so life is as good as it gets as usual...
the poor kids are still so needy... happiness needs to go out a lot (at least he tells me) cuz of medical stuff he's dealing with (he's got lots of medicines and $300 of jackson's rent money went to him this month... that's happened more than a few times over the years, like a lot... money money money, i give so much away as i always knew i would... cuz people matter more than money... some people just say that... maybe most... i like living up to my words and ideals, even when i am poor (first world poor, still plenty lavishly wealthy compared to most people on this planet)... so be at peace amidst the turmoil, and all that jazz...
narf :)
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