and the bad news is

the good news is jackson may have finally heard me cuz she sat down and wrote down some of her bills... there are several key components messing, like animals expenses and gas/toll/car expenses and food expenses and living/fun/recreational expenses and well, a lot of money not factored into her monthly nut... unfortunately, even with all that not in the monthly budget, she will have trouble earning enough to pay rent... i see why she has to borrow so often and seldom pays rent... so until she can earn more, the issue is impulse spending... and she is still not ready, as far as i can tell, to stop that... she just signed up for $180 a month for a personal trainer at LA Fitness... that is in addition to the $30 for the gym membership... her impulse spending is wiping out my savings... even if she went to the extreme of giving me her checks and living on a small weekly allowance (which she may not be able to handle emotionally because she is so addicted to impulse spending), stretching her income to pay all of her bills would be tough... I pay rent and utilities and cable and wisely do not spend $180 a month on a personal trainer... and she wants a relationship that will increase her spending a lot which is why she needed to borrow every month last year when she was in a relationship...

so the reality is... i am screwed... i should have never bought a new car... alas, who will be there to take care of me when i am too old to work but still alive cuz i will not have the retirement savings i might have had... alas...

and narf too...