a little hungry

so my choices are no fun to look at... go into complete shut down self-sacrifice mode or take a huge loss and trade in the car and start over or cuz out cable, phone assistance i give to others, driving anywhere that isn't a necessity, and going into a modified shut-down self-sacrifice budget freeze mode... life's choices are so un-fun sometimes, ya know?...

meanwhile, i am a little hungry... that is a sign of life, which is better than total shut-down... so i am not quite yet ready to roll over and die... partly cuz i've got people depending on me in so many ways including literally for survival and for at least a couple, i don't see anyone else ready to step in if i am suddenly gone... save the cheerleader, save the world... you might not get that and/or you might not get it precisely as i mean it in my particular peculiar personal life, but it's still true...

gonna heat up some wonton soup and sit back and watch some ncaa tournament after i browse the web to see what i might be able to do with the car... previous entries might fill in the blanks, if they remain out there in public... telling secrets is a delicate balance... telling mine is fun, but sometimes telling mine means also telling (or at least alluding to) some of the secrets of others and that is not fun at all unless the others are a lot like me and i've never actually met anyone who is a lot like me so... where's that soup?...

narf (hey, there was almost a smiley face after this one, so lighten up, will ya?)...