at work, at play

time does not matter until it runs out... all there is is the moment and yet, we feel so much more... yesterday, today, tomorrow... memories, experiences, dreams... a day can seem to go on forever... a moment can define a lifetime... heroism, heartbreak, revelation, revolution... pinnacle moments, nadir moments, the acme, the zenith, the infinite, the abyss... i have known more than a few of these moments, which is more than a few more than some experience in a lifetime, and yet, this perspective is truly relative as the extreme experience for one may be a mundane experience to another... and there may be many who experience far more extremes than i have known in this lifetime, though i doubt it, seriously, for what it's worth...

and to achieve it, to know what it means, or even this, even, even more with so little time here, the words must be saved, stored somewhere in the head as the life now takes me away from this computer, this blog, this box waiting for words, from early morning, before sunrise, to late in the evening as i return to a work life that will take all the time i will give it and i continue to play in the evenings, softball, cards, the child still singing i won't grow up (repeatedly)... it is what it is, what i want from me...

so long days at work bring smiles as i learn, so much absorbed today, new names and faces, the computer systems, logistics, files, systems, personalities, and eventually, my limits... and then, through the worst traffic i've experience since i moved here more than two decades ago, there was softball... a slow start for all, but we won 16-6 and remain undefeated... i went 2 for 3 knocking in 2 and scoring 2, including the winning run... there is still much fun, at work, at play, at life, even without the partner...

so many more details are left out as fatigue calls me to sleep, but it's been a good day...

narf :)