staying away

yes, i have been staying away from the computer all day today cuz the loss of words is depressing and distracting and more words don't want to come out because i don't trust the computer (or me to click save every line, but clicking save every line distracts me even more) and it's a horrible loop for a writer (probably comething like writer's block), not that i am a writer anywhere but in my mind but then again, it is my mind the block might be in so all i can do is come here and dump all this out without any clever creativity cuz most of the brain is shut down or something like that...

so all day i was playing ruzzle and not that well, actually, cuz i think i am something like 15-20 for the day cuz the random people they chose for me were dang good and i was losing focus after a few hours of constant playing without food but i was trying to get to 200 wins but i was sliding down in winning percentage so i started something like (estimated) 178-88 and am currently at 193-108 but i did have a new high round score (2165) and a new high game score (2950) and a new high word count (70) and i dropped from a rating of 1767 to 1630 in one day... now knowing there are people rated above 3000 lets me know i am an average player, but still, i want to be getting better, not worse... probably should not have played today with my brain on strike and all...

yes, i am staying away...

narf...