standing more

because i have been standing a whole lot more, i've been writing a whole lot less (and out more too, so i am slipping entries like this in tonight, which isn't really tonight... shhhhh)... this is at once a smile and a frown, the smile being that the body is vertical and feeling healthier and more alive and most of all more sensitive as the nerve endings flow to the brain through the spine better with more verticality and more movement, in spite of a bit more physical fatigue... the frown is the reduced writing and acceptance of the aloneness of lofe and somewhat reduced hope (much more than somewhat at times) of finding someone who relates to me and more, would want to be the one and more who could keep up with me physically and be an intimate partner at this stage of life...

alas, the fact becomes ever more clear with each passing year that the pool of potential partners diminishes dramatically if i want to maintain my standard of being able to keep up with me physically as one criteria for a potential partner... it's a very sad sedentary world after a few decades on this planet... overweight and obese people consider themselves in shape and even fit because they can walk a 5k in an hour... the ridiculous political correctness allows all sorts of distortions in the definition of physical fitness... while it is very true that some have physical limitations beyond their control, most people just choose to be lazy and sedentary...

so i grump about the standards of this culture and lament about the loneliness and then move along... standing more, moving more, exercising more, and leaving more and more of my age-group peers behind... life among humans is like that for someone who does not want to conform to the sedentary life... but still, lonely as it is and sad as the world is, it is sweet on the inside...