just as i fell asleep

wtf?... he (happiness) sleeps out in the living room almost every time when jackson is away which suggests he really does not want to sleep alone... so i typically sleep on the couch when she is away not only because i feel his need, but even more because i will sleep my circadian rhythm if i go into my room and close my door and he will not go out when he needs to go out... but tonight he was needier than usual... i fell asleep around 3am and he was waking me to go out at 4am... he had gone out at his usual times, after dinner and about 10pm and he peed and pooped just fine, but he seemed intent on not letting me sleep tonight... i did not give in until 6:30am, but definitely did not sleep well tonight... so today (saturday) is gone as i am going to sleep... wtf, happiness?... alas, all that potential silliness is cloudy now, fatigue does that... blah blah blah wah wah wah, burp...