sleeping alone or

some people get to sleep with other people and some people sleep alone... some people do one or the other by choice and some just stumble into the sleeping arrangement... children and some in what we in the west call extreme poverty may sleep together simply out of convenience and not so much by choice... some who sleep together do it out of loneliness, greed, or desperation or even calculated as a survival technique and this is a choice that is sort of not a choice... some sleep alone because no one will sleep with them or because they do not bring someone close enough and that can also be a choice that is not a choice... and some make a conscious decision based on desire to sleep with someone and some make a conscious decision based on desire not to sleep with someone... so many possibilities, so many rationalizations... and it is all a matter of perspective... relativity...

i don't always want to sleep alone, but i choose to sleep alone primarily because i sleep when i want to sleep and not on any schedule and i have yet to meet someone who accepts that i am not going to sleep on their schedule or a normal human schedule without some negativity like guilt or... the sleep time is often my writing time and the importance of my writing time, well, appreciate it or accept sleeping alone...

still, there are times when i wish i was not sleeping alone...