still celebrating amy

your birthday amy... yeah, you get another happy birthday entry just cuz i am still celebrating your life... after all, i spent years fantasizing about making love to you and you were one of my favorite masturbatory fantasies for quite some time after we lost touch... sorry we lost touch, i really didn't mean to... i just didn't know what to say to you after a while... and i did not want to be rejected and wanted you so much... and i definitely didn't want to seem like a stalker or bring you down in any way, so i drifted away... you were the most beautiful girl in the world for me for a long long time... getting the song references? :)

hopefully you are laughing with me and feel good about inspiring such a powerful hunger on every level in another being in this world... and hopefully you embrace this happy birthday wish (if you ever find it) with the innocent loving intent it was sent... and hopefully you found honest love in your life...

and hopefully you are enjoying your life...