though the process would likely be more gradual than even before on some levels, finding someone who falls in love with me at the same time i am falling in love with her or... finding someone who is interested in sharing life in a partnership relationship or... even finding someone who is interested in reading and responding to most every word would change a lot... if not everything... i mean, can you imagine someone willing (and daring) to try to hold me accountable?... lol lam :)
why would everything change?.. what is real?... is anything real if it is not shared?... real in one mind, perhaps... sharing changes everything... I do not have to think outside of my head here unless I want to... i don't have to take anything seriously... sometimes i do, but why if nobody pays any attention?... i want to take everything seriously... i want to take someone seriously... i want someone to take me seriously... finding someone who reads this writing i do on the web, especially in my daily life blog (here for now, perhaps elsewhere when you read this), and who actually brings it into the life i share offline would change a lot too, if not everything...
the question above every entry (just below sometimes i wonder below the blog title) has been there all along, and when someone i actually do know in offline life does read and take these words seriously and brings them back to me, sharing the babbling writing me with the daily physical world me, a lot will change... maybe everything...
exciting, aye? :)
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