and who will rise above the fears and insecurity to open up themselves and just share honesty?... the deeper and more poignant question is who is truly self-aware enough to be honest with themselves, his self, her self, your self?... and then, genuinely actively happy with the truth they find within?... i have yet to meet one... i used to be one... i may still be one but it is only confirmed through sharing and sharing does not happen at that level of intimacy these days...
and why i remain mostly alone, though jackson shares as much as anyone in daily life, even with her i allow much to be overlooked, much dissatisfaction and unhappiness to be ignored because she does not want to go there... but she is so beautiful inside she is family so i accept her chosen limits as i have with several others who've become family in this life... the time of year (no maybe, aye?) and time off from the working world brings me time to remember and reassess life and feel the blessings i have had and still have and also feel the void awaiting what is missing... the one... the falling in love... and the intimacy of the completely open honesty shared...
first, i want honesty...
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