yeah, i finally decided to eat... soup with some pasta... appetite is not much there, but eating is kind of important so i did... apparently i have felt this coming all week as i was dragging around in the blah blah blahs (yeah, that's the way to paint the target around where the arrow lands lol lam sigh)... the roller coaster of uncertainty and insecurity and did i mention uncertainty shakes another chair out from under me and we are flying off the tracks once again, so what else can i do but laugh at myself and enjoy the ride... and i am still loving you for being here, now more than ever...
gotta vent it out i suppose... and let it go... soup :}
*hug* i am really sorry you have to go through this unemployment thing yet again. i know you knew from the start that this gig might be temporary, but still it sucks for them to keep saying that they might come up with another position for you, blah, blah, blah, you're doing great and then kiss, kiss, bang, bang, they kick you out the door. the corporate game sucks big time. i really hope you can find a stable job with benefits and can leave behind this period of great uncertainty. thank you for continuing to write and for your unending optimism.
ReplyDeletethanks so very muchness my friend... everything is relative... i still have more choices and opportunities and reasons to be optimism than most people on this planet and no matter how dark the clouds of depression seem and no matter how heavy the weight of helplessness and fear of homelessness might get, i still know i am a fool for throwing a pity-party for long - for i have survived the streets once, twice maybe even, and i even enjoyed much of that experience for in a very real way it is so freeing, but also i know i am not close to that now, just bummed over the inconvenience of being unemployed and sad that my worth is not appreciated or respected as much as i'd like it do be...
ReplyDeleteyes, the corporate games... and the people who get caught up in them forget their humanity and lose their sensitivity and can ignore their cruelty and it is nothing new to me... it just sucks as it always does when it is so in the face...
*hug* my friend... i have every intention of enjoying the end of times promised by the mayan calendar and the day after that too without the burden of having to go to work, yes, i intend to take december off and hopefully find new employement in the first quarter of 2013... 13, maybe a lucky number for me... staying positive :)
and most seriously, your caring helps more than you know :)