almost there

what it is about, the reference to more to come, probably, that is, is is deeper than a few minutes can get to and i don't have the time i might have had had i not been such a softball addict that i would play two tournaments two weeks in a row with a sore arm... and with sanford winning the pac-10 championship, i must step into the shower and then force myself to sleep so what it is about will have to wait another day (one more of the thousands of days, no doubt)...

simply, tonight is the anniversary of the single most profound emotional change, shift, and trauma of this lifetime... that said, i will not delve much deeper tonight as i want to be awake and rested (especially the arm) for the tournament that starts really early tomorrow... perhaps tomorrow night i will find the will, the motivation, the inspiration, the time, and the right ambiance, atmosphere, and alignment of celestial bodies or something to explore the depths as i have not done in quite some time... att wiped out the website that touched on the depths that are more expressed on paper in boxes in storage up north... candora touched on the inner spaces a bit in the early days perhaps... maybe here too a bit or was that here... and she might remember... ah, the obscurity or the playfulness continues... and that is all we get to in this entry...

it is fitting, perhaps, that the time will be available next week to explore memories of the most intense roller coaster ride my heart ever went on in this life (though there is another that was close and in many ways much more brutal)... meanwhile, check with these links for the current roller coaster ride... and whatever happens in your life, choose to find a way to enjoy it, even if it gets so bad on the outside that you can only enjoy it on the inside, you can - please do...