don't be sad (or sorry)

i mean, don't be sorry for me for my rising loneliness (oh, that> again?)... yeah, i mean, it's not a pity party, after all (and if it was, why be sad at a party. after all (snark)... seriously, i am not like most people (which is the primary reason i am alone)... not so much in that i have any magical powers or anything, it is perspective where i usually differ... while most might feel down and self-pity when loneliness screams out stuff like so lonesome i could die, i feel the excitement of potential for action, for change, for the end of loneliness under the nearly debilitating pain and screaming... cuz unless the obstacle to greater happiness is faced fully, felt fully, and actualized fully - no real solution can come...

just ignore the lonely whining (and explorations of deeper emo) if you feel bad, just as expressing the fears of joblessness and homelessness is not about indulging or encouraging or sharing the fears, rather, that is about overcoming the fears and finding solutions to that which causes the fears, the deeper (and constant at times) expressions of loneliness is not about feeling bad even when it does, it is about finding a way to feel good :)

i think it's almost time for sleep now :)