broken up

the thoughts in my head, that is... and happiness's insecurity is not helping mine any as he sits and stars at me to get my attention (his usual pattern the first day jackson is away... he will be a lot worse tomorrow, especially in the morning... hopefully it won't continue every day and every morning as i will not get any peace or rest if it does, but hey, that's family, right?)...

meanwhile, aside from the dog-stare distraction tripping up my thought process, the thoughts are being broken up in all these entries and i wonder if i am repeating myself redundantly (as opposed to just repeating myself) or if i am making progress (as in making sense) of all the jumble inside... feel free to fill me in on your perspective since even when i re-read my entries which i sometimes do, but maybe not nearly enough to get the points within clarified, i still see things only through my eyes... too bad happiness can't tell me what he sees in all these words since he obviously wants to share undivided attention constantly today... nyuk...

eventually all this babbling could lead to some mental organization (or mental illness, depending on perspective) and even if the words do not find the right audience (ah, dreaming of the one who will find my babbling irresistibly adorable and humorous and clever and brilliant and all that because they get every nuance and find the amazing positivity within it all, but that's beside the point, cha cha cha), perhaps some wise mind has finds some reason within...

me?... well, that could take a while :}