still breathing

heading out to softball in a few, long work day again and stopped home to walk happiness and grab some food... hopefully yesterday's illness was caffeine withdrawal and not food poisoning... i guess i will know in a few hours or later tonight... caffeine withdrawal was definitely part of it... yesterday was a day from what is casually called hell... cramps, headache, neckache, ache ache... and true to form, the ceo pounced like the sadistic narcissist he can be... and today he acted like nothing happened... no rudeness, no threats, no disrespect... he is really so detached, out of touch, makes no sense, and completely lacking in people skills if it wasn't for the old south good old boys network, he'd never have made it to where he is.... sure couldn't if he started out today... and still i love the challenge of trying to help him...

and here am i open to any scrutiny from anybody anywhere being as honest and understanding and forgiving as i am able because i am not in this world to compete or fight or feed into negativity... i do what i do, i am what i am, imperfect and inconsistent, but still true to my ideals, open to change, and welcoming your thoughts... even if they don't always appear to make sense :)

so what else is new?...