xbox confessions

i connected the xbox tuesday night...

i have ncaa college football for the xbox...

do i need to explain any further where i have been this week?... laugh all you want, i love the escape into the game after years away...

my thumb is in pain though :)

and ok, so i am lonely more than every lately and escaping into the game is a wonderful distraction... so many people in daily life... none but work people in mine and it's a paranoid negative environment so there's no closeness with each other or in each others lives... not sure who has it better (i rejoice in the lack of drama and drainage of energy and celebrate the semi-freedom and relative independence in mine, even when the lonelies want to crush me, i'm still under there celebrating... kind of like the bottom article of clothing, only the dirty laundry pressure i feel is from desire to share within me, if that makes any sense in comparison)... everybody else has stress of relationships and family and deaths of loved ones and yet, but i do see them rejoicing in their own way at the plans and shared experiences...

so i didn't turn on the computer for the past few days... played the game all tuesday night and then went to work... slept as soon as i got home wednesday and then went to work... played part of the evening then slept yesterday then went to work... and here we are... i think the only reason i am at the computer is cuz i am, ummm, pooping... i don't think i pooped since tuesday... yes, you probably didn't need to know that, but hey, it's the real... if i didn't have leftover subs and pasta, i might not have eaten, though there's always lunch at work if i remember i sometimes get hungry... work absorbs me almost as much as this particular video game... anyway, yes, babbles on the toilet seat (botts) has another page in it's book... laughter may abound, but i'll be playing ncaa football shortly :)

at least the computer is on again :)

happy you day :)