someday

yeah, someday you will find me here, or somewhere, rambling on in words as i've always done... you may remember the letters i'd write and maybe you still have some (i'd love to see them)... the writing is and always has been my solitude, my meditation, my therapy, my confident, my friend... and you were and are welcome to be part, to read, to respond... i don't know if i will ever stop as long as i can type or hold a pen, though the few times i fell in love and lived with someone who shared that love i did slow to a few words every now and then...

someday you will find me here and read all these words, the laughter and the whining and the silliness and the drama and the fantasies and the attempts to relate the real, thereal, the details of the life as i live it in the physical world offline... i do it for you, because i believe you still care... even though some friction, some hard times, some challenges came between us... even though i made foolish mistakes that hurt... we cared, we loved, and i believe that never ends... family forgives everything... love conquers all... and in my heart, i believe in your heart...

so someday, when you find me here, or somewhere, welcome back my friend... i've missed you and i hope you let me know you found me... i hope we stay in touch this time... i hope we visit and catch up and share some new memories... cuz i've missed you and i love you...