serious saturday

like that energizer bunny, aye?... yeah, still going, still thinking and feeling and sorting and tossing the waste into the trash and remembering the blessings and the curses and the bliss and the pain and the... unsaid unspoken?... what is really between the lines?... and how much of this day and the last few (dozen?) entries were the result of an over-active imaginations stimulated by sleep-deprivatyion and the euphoria of sudden time for myself and the caffeinated sugar protein drinks and the memories stirred by unpacking boxes and the excitement of restoring some semblance of actual connection to the physical spaces and something else again and the music... the music of the mind, the music of the night... and the memory of the music of the tapes... oh those wacky tapes again, will they never let us rest?... gues that's what she wanted got what she wanted, lost what she had thank you gavin...

it is so easy to ignore what is unpleasant, especially when it is our own actions... but why let a cruel act continue for more than a decade?... that is the puzzle deep within my mind that i do not really want to solve... and that is why i spend most of my time in the moment and have detached from the lifelong dreams and the timeline of history that creates a deeper fuller me... so am i shallow, after all?... have i learned to be human?... sadly, the answer may be the fact that i do not see what is right before my eyes...

do you? :}